Dun take things for granted..........

haiz.. just had dinner and is only half an hour to social meeting so i decided to blog loh......... Oh shit my meomory is failing me liao........

After speaking to that her, was kinda of having a.... mixed feeling....... I think my character and her clash lah..... She was saying i lack of EQ..... Frankly speaking, what's that?? EQ emotional something... My ah moh not that zai....I suddenly wonder the attitude and behaviour i having now............... IS it right?? Not as in ideally lah.... I have told myself that this 4 years of uni will be the last 4 years when i can be my true self.... COs when i stepping out to the work force... I must tune myself to counter the dark side of the society..... ALl the backstabbing, politic etc...... So this 4 years i will put on my ture self..... hmm........... hopefully cos i also not very sure what my true self is........ Everyday is like putting a mask.... To friends i may seem like a joker, but the problems i have, do anyone know?? haha..... not saying i damn jia lat..... But as i have say, you muz learn to see open......

Mood swings, problems, difficulties...... are all part and parcel of life......... I feel really blessed to be able to go uni and study... seriously.... cos studying is much more better than working.... FOr now lah... BUt when i start open my book, it will be another story....... Study is the most relac things after playing... hee...... But you yrself will feel a great sense of achievement when you see yr test paper and u did well...... Is much better than getting a driving license...haha... i suppose...... All the sadness, bad feeling, etc.... we muz learn to have in control of them.... Up till now, my control of them is still very jia lat.... I flraed up easily..... get mood swing easily.... But as compared to last time, the frequency is much lesser and i am able to tahan more....... seriously.......... Thinking back, if i meet people like me last time as compared to now, i'll go up to that person ( which is me last time) and give him a punch in his face... haha........ haiz..... really, you learn as you grow.........

Do i care about what people think of me? I can't really answer the qns, I can give the fuck off attitude, but sometimes i really wish to know how people think of me.......... People will get shick righT?? If you suddenly go up o him/her and ask What do you think of me?? For guys okay lah... but may sound a bit gay, but for gals, what if you send the wrong signal to her, she thought you want to jio her? it will be a mess........ At times people will tend to keep how they feel about others to themselves....... haha... but if you ask me how i feel about you.... hehe hee..... nvm........

Ren yu ren xiang chun is a very chim things...... haha..... You also cannot expect everyone to behave, think the same what, if not what's the difference between robots and human..........

Seriously is damn easy to say, give suggestion on what to do..... But when taht suitation happen to yrself, you will be in a loss.... really dunno why....... IS it say is not equal to must dO??? hmm............ all i lack is courage.......... does eating bladder of tiger help??? anyone try before??? Is it really true that you will have more courage when you are feeling tipsy?.................. hmm......... haiz.... whatever it is, muz try.... if not you will end out feeling regretful..... which is no good.... Be true to yourself, wen xin wu kui....... can liao......

Got to go for my meeting liao..... Hopefully will end early, then i will have time to revise my maths and econs quiz....... haiz... after that i'll be free...... 30 days to exam....... jai lat next sem i cfm die liao...... More aus to take, GE to take and worst got chem....... cfm struggle like siao...................... arrgggggggg................