To that you..........
hope u clear things up before it is too late...... I'll be waiting....
If there's nothing you wana say...... so be it... shall believe for one last time.........
Circle of trust...................
slow slow....
haiz my pace of study had be so so slow......... diaoz.... dunno WTF i am doing...... cannot sit still there and study well... haiz..... now suffering from hunger... had my lunch at 4p.m........ till now haven had dinner....... was thinking of supper but lionel was still full...... haiz....... shall just sit down there and wait to be dead from hunger...............
How? help help...................... hungry hungry,very hingry....... haha was thinking of the hungry cheer during sports camp......
haha... good man.... is this what we call great mind think alike? agree with what you write "milo man"... who change from drinking milo to coffee.... u should noe who i mean........Total agree with your tidal wave theorm....... haha....... hmm.... think the image i see myself in dunno is it the same old me?
diaoz........ exactly my setimentals....................
MIA in action......
hmm..... beem 2 days since i last update...... cos everytime reach my room at about 2 to 3 a.m btw damn tired liaoz....... Koaz yest was talking to my roomate i talk till he fall asleep.... 害 我 at there talk a lot, thought he was listning loh..... whaha...... hmm.... think i bo ho seh, keep talking to people till damn late..... that time was zh yest was my roomate...... so in the end sleep at 4a.m... damn tired......
School offically is over... and exam starting soon... shalln't say how well prepared am i....... but..... haiz... think my material sci teacher got read my blog cos today he conducted a lesson to go thru the quiz...... but in the end.... go and no go also no use... not fruitful.....
Haiz....really looking forward to holidays...... Not bad yest i study got to know 2 more new friends..... whaha......... hmm... this is a boring entry i noe... but my brain somehow saturated... cos i just wake up........ k shall update later tonite if i have the time.... gona go library to study liao........hopefully i can study a bit more....... yest i was damn damn stressed... but thankz to jasmine...... hee...... great shi fu......... haha....... STUDIES studies..... cannot be too stressed cos when you are too stressed, u won;t be able to absorb...... so stay cheerful......
P/s: dun be sad miss blahblahblah.....
BACK!!! DAMN it................
just back from my material science quiz..... dun need say, i flunk..... 55/100... but i should feel happy liao..... cos even those malaysia scholar is also about that range..... super hard paper..... dunno my tutor doing loh... other tutorial set it so easy.. but he's out to kill us loh..... think he lazy to mark, that's why make us go lab... then we will noe our score on the spot..... but why quiz tutor never go through one....... so if next time exam come out, we will still dunno... forever dunno... diaoz..... my tut mates was saying he know the resaon why SAM ZHong, my tutor, never come today... he scared we beat him up.... whahahah... i won't loh.... i will just pat him on his shoulder and say to him...... WELL DONE!!!!........
haiz.... so overall my ca i got 40/100.... convert to 30% i had 12 marks.... so for exam i muz score at least 55/100 in order to pass..... i will aim higher... maybe a C....... muz really pai...... sway.. had stomachache when i was about to start the test....... diaoz... muz be the lasi lemak...
Talk to lionel till 4 plus yest.. cos we both couldn't sleep.... is like this one, once you reach your sleeping time, you won't be able to sleep....... ahah... thankz lionel.... great talking to you..... ehh..... like damn gay.... haiz..... he say that the first time i was in hall compared to now, i like change a lot...... dun really know the change is what....... But think cos of that her loh... but i'm slowly getting over it liao.... really.... i swear....... is not a crush... i noe it for sure....... hmm... maybe 老 套 一 点, i will choose to bury her deep in my heart... yucks..... 毛 都 站 起 来 liao..... whaha.... i know my time not here yet... k will never mention about her again..... but nevertheless learn a lot..........hmm..... we were also quite sad cos we both dun know the feeling of people declaring their love for us..... haiz.... think no one ever crush on me b4 loh.... whaha.... as least he has a gf now..... think my mom think i bo ho seh liao, so long no gf........ hmm.... shall scrared her more....... read man's health in front of her..... and see guys with 6 pack, will act as if i'm in love with them...... whaha.........oh no, his son is a gay..... whaha.......
Will see my true usual self liao......... Suddenly i have this thought, you change yourself to suit the environment or you just be yourself?
Still waiting for my birthday photos................................
To xiaowei, remember what you say today ho....... if not i will really flood yr tagboard......... going watch 我 猜 now..... my 杨 丞 琳....whaha.... ok not mine..... but just relise she same age as me........ wow....... how good if she was mine...... opss................. 变 态.... whaha... not bad my chinese improving....... shall write more.. so potato people like chow will be full of question mark ???????????????? chaoz... now slack then at nite going to NBS to study.......
saturation point....
diaoz is 230a.m and i am damn awake... haiz..... just came back from NBS reading room........ Tomolo gona be my last quiz liao.... muz score... but i noe it gona be quite difficult...... i get only 25/100 for the 1st quiz.... so if i get full mark tomolo also no use...... wow..... jai lat liao lah.......... haiz.... nvm... just dun da pao can liao....... chey... pui pui.... touch wood.....
Relise is better to study elsewhere then study in hall.... cos in hall, after i study a while, i will go back my room, touch touch my com, take a nap... etc... not productive at all...... went LWN library in the afternoon and not bad, manage to study a bit....... Zh say i very pai, but dunno well though i got study but my marks somehow dun reflect my effort lei... is it becos of my study method? or people have 小 聪 明 ？if it is the latter, IS NOT FAIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Saw a lot of funny people while studying, haha but lazy to write about it..... Yesterday went to SPI wedsite... cos pingz bf was telling me he went to the 10 most haunted place in s'pore b4 and he told me abt the wedsite, so decided to take a look loh..... I end up reading the article about the rape cum murder case........ FArking scary.... especially the ringtone that part.... i download that and play on my com.... diaoz.... scared.. whaha..... Good website...... shall go scared myself again later....... Shutter is not scary loh compare to that.....
Yeah speaking of pingz... went out with them on sat..... ktv cum dinner.... damn cheap cos i gt vouncher from zy, in the end everyone pay abt $8..... KTV on a sat afternoon.... so bloody cheap....... after dinner went to play pool at cuppage.... diaoz....saw a lot of ah beng.... feel very awardward..... funny funny feeling...... like all 小 妹 妹 and 小 弟 弟。。。。。。 whaha... really loh... but saw one chio lian....... but is lian... haiz.... wasted............. funny loh..... place i last time go now seem so weird when i go there again.......
duuno is i already get over it or the exam is preventing me from thinking? but nevertheless.... time will heal me..... gona be strong...... oh no..... my blog is getting meaningless..... hee...... write too much of my personal feeling liao.......... dunno who had be stalking me....... whahah........
My 1st paper is next wed... wish me luck peepz...................... had plan for what i gona do after my exam liao....... good luck GRACE for your driving on friday... whaha.........shit wanted to write something but forget liao.............
wow.....1/8 of my uni life is gone....
Just relise that 1/8 of my uni life is gone.... damn fast..... Though studies can be stressful... but it can be enjoyable too when you understadn what u are studying...... Everyone seems to be stress nowadays....... ahah..... from msn can see... a lot of people never online... JUst like me... hee.... cut down on msn a lot liao.... going into full gear later...... Jsut back from dinner so decided to take a break.......
THis week is quite sad cos is our last tutorial... whaha...... hopefully dun see our tutors again.. unless we da pao..... touch wood...... My econs tutors damn funny loh..... ask her for tips.. then she say a lot of cork.... Then before she left she wrote something on the biard... i thought she was giving us tips...... but she wrote " GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR EXAE"......... good luck.... and she actually spell exam as exae...... haha..... but no one told her... give her some face what...... Mtahs tutorial was also last one.... heng lah... though he's good but i think i cannot adjust to his teaching pattern....... No more tolerating the digustingness of the material science teacher..... yucks ... whaha......
Diaoz....... One of my friend also got into some trouble cos she wrote about her company in her blog.... diaoz... what happen? Confirm this is bad stabbing by her tong shi....... haiz.... why people so free go around back stabbing... haiz....... hopefully she's ok.... haha..... think won't get sack..... haiz......
K lah... gtg and study liao... happy mugging everyone......
what a way to start my day....
从 小 我 就 always hear people say 自 己 跌 倒 自 己 爬............ when u fail, you are the only one who can help yourself up....... Poeple will only give you advice, support u morally, but ultimately is you yrself who can help you yrself...... be strong and you will be abe to overcome anytime... time will be the factor........ just trust time once most......
Hmm.... so is time a doctor? But on the other hand, once bitten twice shy....... Quite true....... But if bitten by snake once, the only way to overcome yr fear of snake, is by getting close to it again...... But no no, i rather be scared of snake forever...........
wow jia lat...
really need to speed up my pace liao... cos for whole of today only manage to study one chapter of material science.... sianz 1/2.... partly to blame was me..... i went to watch the charity show on tv... haiz...... sianz liao....
But i think at least i got study a bit..... quite touching....... Today i study in th MPR and meet w roland, mk and some of their friend.... they wanted to order pizza for dinner.... i wasn't keen to eat pizza...... partly cos is not full and quite ex.... but pai seh to reject them....... so i agreed loh.... they were really nice people... friendly... but i a bit shy so nv talk much to them.... hee..... then at notez... andy cook spargetti........ and they actually bring a plate of it to me...... so sweet of them.... taste really good........ haha... new friend found......
And tomolo edgar say going to make sandwich for us........... haha....... so good of him.. though i noe making it for us is a decoy.... whaha.... he is actually making for someone and shun pian make for us...... BUT who care for the reason as long as i have food to eat..... whaha...... But hopefully not cheese with ham... cos it will remind me of that her..... whahah... ok nvm.... shalln't say too much.....
spaeking of which i think i gona take up some cooking tips from mom liao...... cos i wana let my wife to be (if that's one.... gf also can) to be really xin fu... cook for her... 爱 心 晚 餐。。。。。。。幸福的女人............ yeah....... haiz will i ever get to say this...... 相信我……我會讓你成為世界上第二幸福的人.... hopefully yes....... 有了你……我就是最幸福的人！opss..... can sense people puking liao...... nvm next time you all will be damn jealous of that her.... seriously..... whahah........
Shiok tomolo no material sci so can wake up at 9.... tehn also no econs... shiok... But exam is only next wed and i haven even start revising... now is only doing past tutorial..... nvm just like what kt say... we shall conquere exam and not let them conquere us........
P/s: Impt to those who noe of anyone who have the physics texbook for common engin can let me know... need it urgently...... open book exam... mzu have it if not lugi.. though i noe will not be of much use........ is blue hard cover called serwaqy jewett for scientists and engineers.... really urgent... thankz... have pls sms me..... or tag me on the comment post..... with that... going to slp.
Better day and better man......
DETERMINATION!
seriously i lack self disclipine...... always awanted to study but end up touch my com.. see this wedsite see that wedsite... i already cut down a lot on msn..... but when i go study room study... study a while will go back to my room......
diaoz..... is so good when you in happy go lucky mode cos like everything u do will think of the good side..... if not... haiz.... will be the opposite...... Just had luch with yida..... and had a heartharding talk with him....
Determination is another thing i lack it... i say i wanted to do it... but.......
I'm the guy who is ham chi
I'm the guy who's a loser
I'm the guy that sucks at relationship...........
I'm the guy whose studies cannot make it......
I'm the guy who tulan people easily.......
I'm the guy who's super hot temper......
I'm the guy who's SHORT FAT AND UGLY!!!
I'm the guy who will basiacally will not make it big.......
WHo are you.... the list will goes on and on........
Ok, from now on, i'll think things on the bright side.... seriously loh... cos all i think was teh bad side....... Lokk on the brighter side and be a BETTER MAN......
别 人 气 我， 我 不 气。。。。。。。。。
Keep my cool..... Determine to do that.... seriously.... and my studies..... doing into a super pia mode........That means i will not update my blog so regualry liao........ haha...... My exam start on 2nd nov and end on 25... gona stay in hall one month........wish me luck............
what a day!!!
shalln't say much about physics quiz today... haiz... just need to work extra hard.....
Went for my cousin wedding today... was held at armar hotel...... Haiz... relly hate wedding dinner loh.... WHat's the problem with people forever late... reach there at 6 cos of the tea session.....diaoz... nv get to give my cousin drink tea... if not i can earn some extra pocket $$$..... Share the table with my da pei.....
mailto:*&^%$#@#$%^^&&*& For the whole dinner i was hopeing for a hole to hide my face inside..... kaoz really disgrace by da pei wife..... wow diaoz...nvm shalln't say much of her... no wonder no one like her...... damn boring wait till 830 then dinner was served...... damn hungry by then loh.........
Wow really envy my cousin.... had such a good wife... pretty and capable.... They was a video clip about their whole courtship..... They were together since 1999... wow 6 years... damn long ho...... haiz..... seeing them make me think how my wedding dinner will be when my time is here........ haiz.... think too much liao....... had a long time since my family had wedding dinner....... during young was my aunt and uncle.... now was my cousins...... haiz... seeing them one by one get married and family start to get bigger and bigger..... feel damn awardward when their children call me shu shu... sound damn old liao....... Really.... i think a lot when that video was play...... dunno how to express my feeling....... haiz......
Was good catching up w my cousins... long time nv see them liao...... but like not very close............... ai ya ... nvm......
Sometimes life is so sad ho..... when 你喜欢的人不喜欢你 ,可是你不喜欢的人偏偏喜欢你。。。。。。。 haiz...... WHy muz it be like this?为何不可以我喜欢的人也喜欢我。。。。。。。 haiz... won't it be better like this if 你喜欢的人也喜欢你 ?? 几时才轮到我？
Type a lot of thing... but com problem again.... thsi are only those i can retrieve.... shall write more whn i am nack in hall tomolo.....
2 down... i more to go.........
Had my life science quiz today...... did pretty alrite..... Tomolo still have phyiscs.. shall start revising later......
Haiz... exam coming nearer and nearer liao..... but not very stress... dunno why..... My mood had be on a rollercoaster ride this month... dunno why....... i noe why actually.... haha...... just wana to get over it real soon... hopefuuly i can lah...... shall put all this aside for the time being.......
Was talking to stranger on msn and she wrote abt people wearing different mask when facing differnt people....... WHy is this so? I tend to be like this some time........ haiz.... is this the norm? talk a lot during dinner w zy friend.... They say i very different... But this is the uaual me what... and i want it this way.... HAve i find my ownself...... I can solve other problem... but when it come to love..... haiz......
When love become hatred... it can be scaring....... no i not saying i hate her....... is what i relised loh....... when there's diffiuclt in attaining something or someone..... you will tend to appreciate them more.... To strive or not to strive?? Thin line between alot of things..... really envy those people who are happily together....... haha... yeah i'm jealous.......but all this will come with a "price" had to forgone thing... ai ya think i better stop saying... dunno what i'm talking about....
Just concentrate on my studies...... and let nature take its courses..... But think nature is really busy cos..... it had be taking is own sweet time...... people say xin fu is depend on ownself to go for it........ But how xin fu will you be? damn it there's fucking a lot of mosquitoe in my room lately.... hope i dun get dengue.. alot of my friend kana liao....... Just few days ago, one of my neighbour that live directly opp me kana liao.... wow..... diaoz..... scared liao lah.....................
HAPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY TO GRACE TAI AND ZHUO YUAN.....
Very qiao both are primary school friend and both have the same birthday...... Wish grace pass her driving test....... hmm.... which might be a bit difficult... oops she will kill me... whaha nvm look ob the bright side... you can leave yr taht stupid instrucstor adn change to mine... whaha..... and zhuo yuan may u find yr true love... whahah dun always say u evergreen lah...... haha...
Haoiz took me damn long to load in to blogger... dunno what happen.... actually should study for lifescience quiz tomolo.... but.... decided to blog.... went k lunch in the morning w lionel, zy and edgar.... only $7 so damn cheap.....
In the evening went for GL meeting, dunno alot of people... sad man cos i nv see bengkiat and freddy... wanted to work w them one.... but nvm.... think it will fun in SU13....... will froze my freshie to death w my lame joke... whahha....
Really hate hypocrite.... nabei.... kaoz...... i confirm not one loh... i dun liek you i will show it out... know of this person who's a hypocrite..... whahah .... screw it.... i use it cos i dun one to say the sex of that person... nvm..... i tolerate...... damn sad today... same old thing happen... haiz..... still unable to move on...... told zy yest that this week is a good week.... but turn out to be wrong.. damn wrong...... that feeling is really damn sad.... damn damn sad....... haiz... but i shall drown myself in books and tut.... haiz... talk to qianru on phone and feel damn damn better.... no wonder she's my best friend... seriously i think i should open up more... cos bearing it myself is too........ xin ku......whaha..... y?? Y??? Y can't i just bury u in deep to my heart... remind me one someone..... haiz though the thing he did is deem irrating... i can truly understand why he did that........ now thinking back.. think i really pei fu him.... as least he put all his.................... what about me??? whaha......... nvm... that;s me.. just sucky at this type of thing........ haiz....... maybe it all happen too fast... nvm lesson learn......
Btw bon voyage to zaowei... gg oversea for training for 1 month..... sorri cannot send u there cos gt meeting... will miss u... whahah sound gay....... haiz.... think i must go slp liao... v v tired...... slp at 5 yest cos of man u match... thankz parry lim kopi say 230 1st... so i went over look 4 him.. tell me 330... then 330 go... 1st half over cos it start at 245... whaha..... nvm heng nv watch 1st half.... damn boring.... sucks man...... so many yellow card.. think the refree gt bet how much yellow card he will give on asian bookie.... whaha..... hope liverpool will win......
wish me luck for tomolo quiz... did i say fri i gt physics quiz and i haven even touch it?????wow actually wanted to write a few line only but end up.............. whahha old man liao.... naggy..........
what's their problem??? &*(&*^&^%&^%*&
Never get to swim cos the swimming pool at NIE was closed for cleaning.... went for my NKF screen test.....
Piangz... most of them was ah tiong i mean the nurse and i dun understand what they were saying loh... they speak so soft and never look at you... they just speak fast,soft and mumur.....
GA-bra-led.... hear they call something like Toh Chee Wee... my name lah.... so i went.. they wrote a lot of thing on the screen sheet..... but i saw that mine was on the table.... so i told them my sheet was on the table..... kaoz the nurse a bit tulan... then like a bit buai song loh... kaoz u never pronounce properly loh... she was actually calling Goh chee ming..... kaoz... so my fault lah.....
Then after that was some sugar test... she asked...(also an aht tiong)......
She: what time you had lunch?
Me: 1p.m
She: you had any sweet drink i.e tea, coffee, etc...
Me: ya tea....
She: what type?
Me (stunned): normal type loh....
She: what type? ( a bit frustrated)
ME: eh... normal tea loh...
Then her 同 事 who i believe is singaporean say:
同 事: she asking you what time you had yr tea?
Piangz kaoz... WHat time nt equal what type lei.... ok cannot blame........ kaoz....
Me: same time loh...
Wow no wonder my blood pressure was slightly high... the nurse told me to relac.... but... haha..... a bit blood boil liao...
Test conclusion: healthy and need to mantain the healthy life style....... hmm..... shall maintain the no supper rulez.... but had been eating cup noodles for supper for the past 2 days...... ok back to a nap... before studying.. damn slack... did i mention i might be going for ktv tomolo..... what piangz..... someone pls slap me to wake up my ideas...........
wow it took me 4 hours to do one econs tutorial... haiz.... going for a swim and nkf checkup later......
Hall life hadn't been very happening for me...... Not much supper, mj... etc..... all i do is stay in my room talk on msn.... always trying hard to do tut...... BUt if hall life is always so happening, tendacy to da pao is higher...... so irony... wanted to have fun and study at the same time.... is just so hard to strike a balance..... The hall you stay in could affect the whtever class of honour you get..... Cos if like you stay in those happening hall, you tend to have fun all day long....... adn thus affecting yr studies..... But on the other hand though i usually stay in hall...... i also dun study much... haiz.... what to do....... how i wish i can have both fun and study well at the same time.....
Had my foc sub comm meeting conduct by my roomate.... so pathetic.... log nah... only 5 of us.... i nv wanted to join foc sub comm.... but i join cos i wanted to help my roomate..... somemore now the foc will not be entittled any points...... Fuck up man..... but i'm looking forward to being gl in sports camp..... going to have my meeting tomolo..... wonder what ntu will become when they abolished the point system in 2007/2008...... will there ever be FOC camp? what will be the turn out rate? Will people stay join hall sub comm?? haiz...... frankly speaking i think i had not make much new friend in ntu..... esp hall.... maybe a few lah... but all are just hi by... except for neighbour like zhuo yuan, lionel, egdar and mike..... haiz..... is it just so pathentic? wana to have a more happening hall life... BUt how? dunno why people can so aesily be attached in hall...... hmm....... gues is not my time... maybe i join in th queue too late....
remember i watch a show on tv... was a show abt the sword age.... quote popular one.... before killed, a mom say this to his son.....
mom: 记 住 孩 子， 千 万 不 要 轻 易 相 信 别 人。。。。。 尤 其 是 漂 亮 的 女 人。
dunno why i tend to think this is true.... chio be are cunning?? prehaps.... haha....
Does it feel great if you know that's someone out there who like you?? The feeling is quite shiok actually right? even if you dun like that guy/gal.... 被 爱 的 感 觉 很 song... right? so you will sometimes inevitably do something to make that person even like you more... thus increadsing yr songness by 2.......
know of a friend who call that gal she like but somehow didn't progresss much due to dunno what reason name....... i understand how he feels.... but no no... that;s not going to happen... really...... shall be a good guy..... hmm.... peepz dun make assumption abt me cos you all dunno wha's going on......Thinking too much is it good or bad?
As i think of those small little thing, how i wish times could turn back..... Like this we might be able to chanege sometimes.... but is good when times couldn't be turn back... cos this is why we have memories... memories belong to you and yrself only... no one can take it away from you... though is hard to forget some things, but you can choose to bury somewhere deep in your heart.... isn't it amazng how yr whole body system work... is liek when you wana retrieve some memories, all you do is tell it to yr brain and something or someone will go to yr heart and retrieve the so call document for you to think..... If eutopia exist, won;t life be boring?? everything will be so happy....... dunno why we tend to remember sad things more than happy things..... we tend to remember sad things more than happy things..... is like you will remember how this gal hurt you more than how the happy thing u did with the gals.... thsi is just an example and not referring to me..... haha........
K lah gtg swimming liao if not my dear zhuo yaun will nag at me......
Am i thinking too much?
IS just so frightening that what backstabber can do.......... shocked and stunned that one of my good friend was in DB for 20 days....... all becos he wrote abt his officer on his blog and for dunno what reason his officer saw it and sentence him to 20 days in DB..... Hopefully will not affect his uni life..... kaoz...... i think some people mzu be damn buai song him and thus pao toh him... BUt that guy is damn fuck up loh... imagine a guy future is gone becos of yr insenstive? can u pls think of a bigger picture? wow...... was talking to another friend who knew of this that his is also famous..... cos 3 guys got into lawsuit becos of blog...... racist comment..... and he was the 4th... except is about superiors......
Dunno why blog is creating such a bit hoo ha..... students was suspensed, send for cow-sir-ling cos they wrote things abt principle and teacher..... diaoz... then people were charged for racist comment..... ok lah maybe the racist people deserve it... bUt my friend and those student lei?? Is it too much of a fuss? That's why i thing being a civilian is much better...... u dun get extra, sol and worst DB....... haiz..... sad man.... thought we are all like ask to speak up... but when we speak, tend to get into some sort of trouble... this deter people who had intention to speak up to come forward... thsi make me wonder how's the speaker corner in singapore is doing now??/ still gt pp go there to speak?? haiz..........
All along i thought that blog was suppose to let you write what you think........ but as i have say, even if you are how perfect, that will be people out there who will be buai song abt u...... some people are vocal.... thsy will say it out, but some people choose to be in the dark side.... either keep to themselves or saying bad things behind yr back..... haiz.... so sad so many people with mask.... i wonder how many mask i wear per day.... but definately damn less..... this is concluded from the few incident that happen... so vocal people like me tends to " die" faster...... this is the problem with people, tehy only want to hear the nice thing....... haiz.... u think u living ethopia meh?? Ideal world...... even angel have short coming....... i think peopls should apprecaited when i tell them what i think of them be it is true or not cos thsi is what i think of them... ahha maybe not... but i also like people tos ay what they think of me?? too direct i noe... but... i'll not cahnge loh... maybe a bit tactful.... cos some people like yh cannot be too direct... muz be tactful to the maximine level... hee.... and thsi will result in being damn fake... haiz... bo pian what.... hee.............
At this rate i'm writing, i will get into trouble one of these days...... SO here's the qns.... what can or can i not write? guess blog will be damn boring when you write things like what you do everyday.....
Today i wake up at 5a.m, brush my teeth, wnet for lect, was late, dunno waht the lect say, had cutlet for lunch.... blah blah blah... ok lah people will be keen to noe how life for you maybe.. but..isn't this like some compo u wrote during yr sec days? no offence to blogger.... so people guilty of this might seriously think of what to do... haha..... on the other hand i am guilty of such things at time.... but i'll always try to keep in short cos i only want the entries to serve as a reminder to me of some of the times....... hee.........sometimes when i look back at my past entries i laugh...... some due to the memories.... bUt most of the time is all the spelling mistakes..... haha... really pity my loyals and aderent reader........ haha but sometimes dunno why i wanted to type some words like that i will type taht and work like "like", i will type liek.... haha... worst... iwill be lazy to chk my blog again......
Very sianz nah alwasy ended my blog with exam coming.... muz study hard... but is really bo pian cos it is really coming.... left 2 more weeks liao and i still have tons and tons of tut to catch up and lesson had not ended..... new things will be unknown... and worst... there's a lot of quiz..... haiz.....ai ya wanted to write some things that i relise but guess it will be another day liao..... hopefully i can still remember........ hee... wow gg to be 4a.m liao.....
part 2
hee... i forget to say my thankz for to my parents..... for sponsoring everything..... hee...... Have a good laugh when i was collecting feedbacks from friends........
Somone thought that miss V was a guy... haha WTF short hair only what..... but can't blame him cos she alwasy dress like guy.... haha..... Worst..... my cousin thought that YAHUI was a butch..... omg... short haira gain... haha..... so gals pls dun cut yr hair too short....... ops.... think yh gona kill me when she say this..... M i really to fake to her?? cos ht say that i was like damn fake when talking to her.... is it?? maybe i dun wana pick up a fight when talking to her so i will be tactful of what i say.......hmm.... haiz....
But my auntine was a bit cork loh.. asked me whther one of my jc friend was attached of not... cos she wana intro her to my tang ge... WTF.... she thought speed dating izit?? whaha..... haha..... dunno is it good luck or bad luck for the gal..... haha shalln't mention who...... Now u all noe, i got few chio bu friends...haha...... so guys, nv lugi right? cum my party... hee....... My mom ws asking me why i dun have gf.... piannzg dunno how to answer her? cos yr dear son is damn SHORT, fat and ugly.. that's why...... but dunno why i told her....... STUDY so busy liao, where got time for this type of thing?? wow... she muz be damn proud of me.... haha...think she wants a grandson.... so mr hock.... depend on u liao... whaha.......
And so this end my bday eposide..... still waiting for my photos...............
thanhz peepz for coming......
Weekend was spend at home doing area cleaning... haiz.... long time nv do liao....... Thanzk everyone for coming........ Sec sch friend, jc friend, army,starhubbers, uni and not 4getting my best friend QR and company...... also thankz my cousin for coming early to help me blow balloon...haha..........Was busy whole nitez entertaining people......... It isn't easy playing host...... haha.... i do till my roomate say i like trying too hard to entertain people........ i entertain till i nv eat much... haha.... was hungry but i ate a big piece of cake till i was full......
Haha... quite sad cos i nv talk to everyone..... haiz..... but finally saw my roomate GF... tall is the word... haha.... adn not forgetting the NURSE.... BEn's gf..... haha....... wow everyone is attached haiz....... wanted to give a speech but..... think is due to stage fright, forget what i really want to say........ Wanted to go ktv in the end but kana put aeroplane..... but still alrite cos i spend the nitez talking to jiexi at S11.... haha..... muz really thankz her.... make me relise a lot of thing..... though we long time nv meet, our bond is still there......... ok here are the list of presents i receive....... no camera if not i will thankz all of them......
Nike cap given to me but Chunxiang
Belt given by zw n wl
BAg by qr n bf
ANg pao by starhubbers
Border "credit card" by army friendz ( amt undiscolsed)
levis T-shirt by voone,jx,wf n sh
conserve and addias T-shirt by pingz, cai and bf
Billabomg T-shirt by ql n vennie
512 thumbdrive by bro n his gf
Wine by uni friend
$200 starhub vocncher by jc friends
condom by AI REN!!!!!!!
Hugo boss perfume by sec sch friend
pillow n pen by limin n ps
Thankz everyone.... wow they like all can read my mind cos those things i wanted buy they all buy for me......somemore i nv hint.... hmm.... maybe great mind think alike haha....... eh maybe not the condom lah... haha..... esp my roomate who suggest the $200 vouncher... yeah can buy K750i.... but sad includeing teh ah pao still short of $$... hmm.... any sponsors??? I had an enjoyable 21 birthday...... What abt u?? sound like some commercial right?? nervertheless also relise a lot of things over the weekend... but shall go slp now... damn tired..... only had 3 hrs of slp yest..... ya will post the picture when i get them from weili.....
countdown.................... 1day..............
hmm.... tomolo will be the day.... jia lat... i dunno everyone gt my address or not cos i never sms them... i got tell a few online but i forget who i never tell....... nvm one.... hee... if they you xin will call me one...whaha.......
Was feeling damn tired now, cos yesterday i slp at 330 adn work up at 730...... i slp at 330 not becos i was studying, cos i couldn't sleep...... dunno why, just tossed abt in bed adn just couldn't sleep nor study...... No no.... i'm not thinking about that her..... as i have said, chapter close...... Think next week won't be a good week nevertheless......cos is quiz week...... starting to feel teh heat liao... haiz.... i dun one take "take away"......... think next sem will be more kia lat cos hall 3 and 7 shifting over liao..... super happening and i happen to have quite a few friends that stay in that hall........... AIr con.. shall go visit them when the weather is hot..... haha..... and i will be able in play mj in their hall...yeah.....
Sometimes i just dun understand china people....... dunno why they like spitting so much...... heard from friend that they even had those spit bowl in garden just for people to spit..... damn digusting loh.... still rem my material science teacher....... he "kaaaaa pui" then spit in the dustbin...... yucks in the middle of class..... seem alrite to him but damn disgusting loh, imagining the bacteria in the air... yucks.............today worst think he swallow it down..... wow...... their culture man...... eehhhhhhhhh...............
was reading someone blog and something she wrote caught my attention.......
sometimes i dunno where to draw e line between
i'm being nice to u cuz u r my gd fren
n i'm being nice to u cuz i'm kinda interested in u..........
Ai miss roar dun worry not saying you lah...... cos it somehow reflect to me y am i in that deep shit..... Think i think too much liao...... pp are nice to you cos they treat you as a good friend..... and this friendship is deemed ruin if love steps in...... haiz.... how i wish time could turn back...i'm not saying cos she is nice to me, then i blah blah blah....actually i know this thing but is just that seeing thise sentence is like a reminder.... ai ya u all dun understadn one, as long as i understand.........
hmm....... i always nice to people also what, guys and gals..... hee.... haiz..... jai lat..... next week 3 quiz then follow by material science quiz....... arrgggg... and exam is so near....... yeah..... 拿 的 起 放 的 下................ But somehow this also have an impact on me...... is it phobai? hope is not... but i suppose so...............
I miss ARMY....
haiz... was looking through my com and found this pictures... Bring back a lot of memories...... Got few hundreds of pictures.... shall upload only a few first....... Army is so relac... no homework stressed... everything will be planned for you, all you do is to carry what people ask u yo do, though it always cork up.... free lodging and meals..... and on top of that allownace to spend..... wow..... shiok... but you ask me to sign on??? I'll say FUCK OFF....... dun wana meet people like KENNY AND FABRIAN KOH......... Two top hated man in 42sar........ find anyone who like them, you come look for me............. bascially there are public enemy number 1....... No forgetting NYJC top scholar in 2002....... GARY... a super fuck up guy.... wonder how he become dentist when he had lock jaws..... yucks....... phew.... sure a lot of NYJC will noe him......
hee.....in the mean time....... enjoy the pictures.......Yes today is a better day and i am a better man..........
ARmy open house...... damn xiong.... everyday muz go back clean arm till siao......
even in army, there's time to relac and take a look at the scenery...... This is just near NTU...
No problem even it means going thru muddy area... woundn't get struck...
Stunt is the word to describe him...... Regular.... who would bring axe for outfield? Build fan inside the bronco? Bring beer outfield? Walk abt during ex in clean fatigue? That's him man....STUNT GAN...
Kaffir specs..... haiz... miss u all man.....
c'mom who's butt is higher then whose?? let's compare.....
massage session after a round of tekang...... WELFARE RIGHT??
IS a tree, no is a plant....... No is army boi.... haha...
ARmy Daze boys, watch it....... Se li ya!!!
Everywhere is toilet for ARMY boys... haha.....
HAha this may seem a bit porn.... Still remember 7 days w/o bathing during BMT... so everyday we will do powder bath...... everyone will strip till left underwear and make to powder till our whole body is white... even the hair and face.... Now i noe y gay can be exempted from NS.....
Should i or shouldn't i cross this river?? BAttle course...... A muz go thru during BMT!!
We are spy..... Going into enemy terrority.....
Dig Dig DIg..... &*^&%^$%$ TRench digging...... Fucking hate this.......
After a hard day work, this is what you will get.......... XIong!!!
Hall Supper........
Today had hall supper....... was only looking forward to the supper only cos i nv had dinner........ Performance was not bad..... hee..... and the ang moh damn sporting........ haha,.... dance in the middle of the stage and creating the hall 12 wave.... think they quite high lah..... had boon lay lasi lemak for dinner... was not bad...... think it is becos i feeling hungry........
Went for soccer friendly and we lose 4-1........ i only play for 20 minutes..... damn it shouldn't have go in the first place..... senior cum late then straight away sub them in....... WTF....... at least play for a half lah..... kaoz....... nvm... no pt explaining... i know yr diffculity......... hmm..... heard u will change, but how cum i still cannot see the change in you?? No point talking big..... Boasting and reality is much hell a difference..... i noe you are feeling very vexed..... but...... this doesn't give you the right to talk big?? hmm... no hard feeling... i noe you are reading...... sometimes..... is the way you boast lah..... u might not relise it... but...... At least set a limit lah.... dun bother asking me anything cos i will just ignore you...... Remember NO hard feeling...........
Hmm.............. 12 oct... will be a day i will remember....... REST IN PEACE........... some things are just not meant to be...... dun worry tomolo i'll be fine...... hmm........ hopefully..... was palnning to study one..... but no mood.... haiz exam is only 20 days away and i seem to know nothing about anything..... how?? and now this.... haiz...... oh man, when can you stop making life miserable for me...... I wanted to be my ownself.... kao pei kao bu....... talk cork....... happy go lucky...... liang ask me y my nick always seem so depressing....... How not to.......... haiz.. i really need a break... hopefully sat will turn out fine.......
Even the news of me being selected for SU13 gl doen't excite me..... cos all the downturn is much much more sadden than this......... i feeling stressed all of a sudden... i want to be my ownself......... arrggg.......... WIll the real CHEE WEE please stand up, pls stand up... haha........ haiz still feeling terrible.................
Was using reverse cyschology saying this week will be a bad week.... but &^%$#@& 好 的 不 灵 坏 的 灵。。。。。。 haiz..... bad nvm... but this week is much much more jia lat then last 3 weeks.... what had i done to deserve all this??? WHY? why? And all the song i hearing now are so bloddy sad............... Tomolo will be a better day and i will be a better man....... Hopefully lah.......... 21 years old in 2 days time......... feeling nothing special......... I need a slap in my face to wake me up.............haiz.. sad sad sadden...... seriously this time round 我 真 的 受 伤 了.............
断点.........
Celebrated christine and colin bday yest.... Initally thought it was just birthday cake and singing of bday song...... But it turn out to be STEAMBOAT..... YEs steamboat..... we had steamboat at 12a.m in the morning...... this seem to be a culture of hall...... haha..... enjoy the food.... hee...... the meat was nice...... wow........ that leonard is power loh.... prepare all the food and drink..... THat's also stingray ray which i never eat...... relly miss steamboat... SO bert... when's our next steamboat??
I forget whoever say this during my army days...... ASSUMPTION is the mother fucker of all cork up........ have to agree with it..... you assume thing adn resulted in things cork up...... Who tou blame? seperate assume and you will get ASS-YOU-AND-ME...... When people do a little gesture, what will you derive for it? Hmm........ oh no..... what am i thinking of? It seem that i still cannot get over it... why?? how cum??? haiz........ listening to everysong on my com make me feel sad........ Shouln't have fallen into it... wanted to get out... but relised i have fallen into deeper and deeper........ Yucks.... i wan to go back to my usual self....... long time haven had this feeling liao....... Dunno why eberything can be link to that....... Yest just sit down there listen to 933 heard abt that story, thsi morning raed my friend's blog and saw him writing all those sad stories abt him and her, put my com music on shuffle mode and it play all those sad sad song........ WTF happen?? hmm..... maybe i have think too much......
IS amazed by all those songwriter....... When there nothing, all those song seem alrite, nice song..... BUT when you feeling down, all those lyrics like saying yr feeling now....... hmm........ i think i really thinking too much...... How i wish for a nice ending just like those fairy tales..... Lived happily ever after...haha....... FAIRYTALES nah... what you think....... wonder how those author get their inspiration from? Dreamz.....
Had a few good dreamz recently...... how i wish it to be true...... Hmm..... wonder what dreamz are... everything inside it seems so real... i ever dreamz of the future before...... Liek i nv been to the place but it seem so familar... later relise it to be familar cos i had dreamz of it...... haha.. still remember when i was small, i can't differnate what's dreamz and relity... i.e to say when i dreaming, i duuno is that real life or not.....from duuno where or what, i derive that in dream you cannot scold vugularities........ SO that nitez i was having dreamz..... u think i was like chase by ghosts or some monsters........ Then i scold 他 妈 的 and i can..... wow was damn frightened loh... cos i thought it was in real life..... freak out loh...... keep running..... haha quite dumb right?? think it was when i was in k2...... haha....... Stupid and naive.....
Arrgg...... exam exam.......haiz.. tonite will have my 1st hall supper....... some people are easily contented but some are not....... hmm.... what abt me? an sms from u brighten up my day?? or seeing u? hmm..... neither just wanted to put this behind me and march on..... left yr left yr left right.....haha..... soldier nah........ Time pass so fast........ everyday like zhuo bo and zoom....... is another day.... exam coming..... 4 years i think will fly very fast.......
OMg i'm listening to what Look What You've Done by jet ( i suppose)... oh man..... think i should just switch off my mwp liao...... haha my best friend hust raed my blog and she can;t make out what i had been writing......... hmm........ this is good.... haha .... cannot write till too obvious right?? 真 的 不 想 想 太 多....... 可 是 我 就 是 不 能............... now is guardian angel sang by junliang... dun i have happy song???
WTF am i doing??
haiz today i can say i had wasted my whole day... WHole day do nothing, online slacking.... But i just manage to study one chapter of econs at teh reading room... yes.... shall attempt the tutorial later....
Was listening to 音 月 日 记 on 933........ what had be a loyal supporter of taht since secondary school..... a very good programme i mzu say.... last time no matter what i will stay up to hear.... but the time was like keep changing....... long time haven heard any nice story liao..... today taht story was quite nice.... a few stories in the past had really touch me... but sometimes is too fairytale to be true......
Dunnp why really pei fu that gal..... Her story was quite normal but the word she use... power.... might sound alrite to some but... haiz... dunno why i can somehow feel what her feel.... Not becos i'm in th same boat as her... but dunno why, i can just somehow imagine what going on loh....... haiz..... Dun think i will ever experience that type of thing liao...... I mean having it now and during secondary school time is completely different....... sec school more pure and innocent..... opss..... dun think "Y(dirty)"...... haiz........ Seeing the pther party happy, you will feel happy..... Is this what people say to make themselves feel better?? oh c'mon lah...... will you really feel happy?? Not a lot of people is able to do that.... hmm.... sound like i'm an expert.. but haha i fucking have not much experience level...haha.... sad manz.......
To love is to risk rejection..... a quote from eito....... haha...... but how many people is able to take it??? Haha..... unless you are damn thick skin to 死 缠 拦 打...... paster?? But this usually work right?? haiz but i just cannot do it... PRIDE man... haha..... but like what i have say, case closed...... haha..... just write cos i feel like it... k lah... muz go back to study liao..... later still need to celebrate BOSS birthday.......
Dun worry, i'm fine..... just a bit sick..... haha bert damn funny use world war 2 to describe...... whahah........... hope yr leg is getting better... cya on sat.....
Yucks... Why things tend to happen during exam period...... LAst time like this, now also..... haiz... is this what THE HE really want? TO make me become stronger.... MAnage to overcome once, so this time it will be the same.... And the final result..... i will become even STRONGER... Not size lah ... &*^&^$%^$&^%
Though i have told myself to **** ** but is hard lah..... HAiz..... is either my mouth or hand or heart itchy.... will be the one who initiate everything....... Is just hard to guess what is in the mind..... haha.... as if i'm the worm in the stomach..... actually doesn't want to write it down in my blog, but... nevertheless..... i cannot defeat the purpose of my dear blog...... Luckily no one had buzz me to asak what had happen but got people hint here and there... c'mon i'm not stupid.... hee......
Sat is my birthday and i like no feeling about it lei.. dunno why... but was quite happy cos almost all i call are able to come down..... hee..... hopefully will be a successful one.... So guys and gals, please entertain yourselves...... Will take this time to catch up with everyone, those who i had not seen for a long time.... You all are not forgotten......
I really sucks at relationship... haha...... IS not surprising i will be all alone in the last few years of life... haha.... sad right?? actually i relise nothing beat being yrself....... Be your ownself...... Do what you want and not fan about others things.... c'mon is only about 26 days to exam..... Heng today and tomolo i have no lesson, so shall pai thru the nitez... hopefully....... Like what is same, i still choose to escape..... Bo dai you might say, ham chi, whatever lah... Just dun wana be a clown and make a nusinese out of myself..... yeah...... Thick skinned?? Nono...... i am very shy one.... dunno why people just cannot believe it...... You fan when you are attached and ypu also fan when you are not..... WTf be gay and les lah..... There is this pair which i deduced is les from teh behaviour..... behaving intimading and holding hands.... Worst they stay together in a room....... wow..... so shiok... haha...... like xiao lan kou..... But the bad thing is they can't have *** .......... haha..... even if they do, who will noe..... yucks... ok...... but this sound like my usual self right??
You all should feel happy for me right?? Determine to close this chapter with no ending... haha..... speaking of determination, i have even no determination to abstrain from using my com... what about this..... Hmm.... but i have confinence in myself... BElieve in myself....... 勇 敢 的 走 出 去... yeah man my han yi pin ying also not bad right?? AUNTINE MARY..... haha u noe who u are.... Let nature take is course..... But usually nature will take his own sweet time.... That's why people like to take short cut and choose a faster way......... why is it you can't have both thing? Choose this one you muz give up another thing... Opp cost...... ECONS..... hmm...... in order to have this, you must give up some other thing........ But we just can;t chosse both or give up both...... hmm.....................
Wow feel SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much better....... I'm not acting strong cos i'm STRONG!!!! haha....... i'm fine no worry...... gona think how to touch up my house......
Btw congrat xiaowei for passing yr driving test..... The feeling is shiok right?haha..... ANd happy early birthday christine.... mY BOSS!!!! Dun worry, everything under control.......
haiz.........
Just back from running.... My plan for this week was to pia.... But kaoz..... it can't be true again..... haiz..... dunno why... just came sit still ther and do my work, once in a while muz go touch touch the computer, msn,etc...... haiz... dunno WTF i'm doing....... Monday is always such a long day for me...... 7 hrs of lect and tut.......
Had inter block flooball today... was fun i shall say..... but the floor was damn slippeary and a lot of people keep falling now....... Haha.... i think most guys cannot take it when gal give them instruction...... dunno is it the ego problem..... cos i saw a gal yelling instruction to his teamates which was a guy.......... Then the guy ask her to shut up...... haha..... she too kao pei also lah... haha..... I only play for one half cos i awol for a while to had my dinner... was damn hungry cos lunch was at 1030................. and i was also damn tired loh.......
Been thinking a lot lately.... BUT................ shall not say too much..... haiz.... defeat the whole purpose of writing a blog..... Oh man.... wtf i'm doing....... But damn sianz loh after a series of quizs... Next week is another week of quiz....... 3 quiz altogether..... oh man..... muz really pai liao lah..... WORK HARD MAN!!!!!!!
我真的受伤了
窗外阴天了 音乐低声了 我的心开始想你了
灯光也暗了 音乐低声了 口中的棉花糖也融化了
窗外阴天了 人是无聊了 我的心开始想你了
电话响起了 你要说话了 还以为你心里对我又想念了
怎么你声音变得冷淡了 是你变了 是你变了
灯光熄灭了 音乐静止了 滴下的眼泪已停不住了
天下起雨了 人是不快乐 我的心真的受伤了This have be the theme song of both my roomate and I, we will play this on my com and listen to it over and over again... hee.........
Why am i feeling this way?? WAKE UP!!!
just booked in to do round 2 of area cleaning....... Did my 1st round at home... and it look a bit tidier...... haiz... THis weekend was the longest time i ever stay at home...... Was home on friday and nv step out of the house except to order cake.......
Weekend was spend lazing @ home, playing games, online..... BUt proud of myself cos i manage to do my maths tut... 1st time man..... feel great.... hee..... Wow really thankful to my mother, accompany me to order cake..... Order a 4kg blackforest cake...... hee...... proudly sponsor by my parent........ Then i was telling her taht i was damn sianz of my sch canteen and feel like eating cup noodles...... Then she went and bought for me 4 cup noodles and asked me to bring to my hall..... But advise me against eating too much...... haha.... on top of that i told her what i feel like eating for sat dinner and luch, and she cooked for me...... haha.... quite touched actually..... ok lah i sounding a bit like those gal liao..... but nevertheless still muz thankz them......
Sometimes one cannot be too trustful of what people say... If not you will end up very jialat..... haiz....... hao xin shi mei hao pao de........ This is why me and my other friend is so jialat now....... we both end up so jialat cos we are too trustful abt people..... That are just bastard out there who are out to prey on us..... haiz.... But nvm at least i relise this point....... nvm...... they will feel good like this, by all means go ahead.... I also dunno how i manage to get by those days....... I help him cos i understand how he feel.... hmm.... we are like on the same boat...........haha...
I tend to think a lot while i on mrt..... like to observe my surrounding and it is amazed that there are so many pattern of people around us....... Dunno why is it becos of so many things that happen around me.... so now when i see people i tend to see more..... haha....... aga aga i will see what sort of people he/she is when i get in touch with them......... Will avoid those who are damn fake...... haha...... and a few incident confirm my observation...... it will be so good if i have such hengness in my exam......
Countdown to 6 more days......................... I'm still in a mixing mixer feeling...... what shall i do? Need some guidance........ Think hard and i'll noe it........... HAha did i mention today was the 1st time i see my roomate so fan..... haiz...... nothing much i can help.....
exam coming........ BAD WEEK....
This week isn't good for me either........ Really loh... dunno what happen..... for 3 weeks in a row, things had not flow smoothly for me...... i keep saying next week will be a better week, but it turn out otherwise.... so i shall use a bit of reserve psycology and say next week gina be a bad week.......
This morning i woke up late and was nearly late for my lesson...... lesson at 830 and damn it i woke up at 820....... Luckily is north spine and i was only late for 5 minutes...... Dunno why, i was freaking tired later..... muz be thinking too much liao... was talking to my roomate till late last time and fall asleep....... haha...... we both like gals siao.... talking thru the nite......... Guess what, i'm booking out today.....haha..... cannot study liao.... my brain seriouly need to rest..... though i nv study much..... end of the week liao...... Looking forward to taste my mom food...... NTU canteen really sucks loh.... everywhere all the same...... yucks.......... and they are not not very cheap either....... Damn sianz nowadays cos you dunno what to have for dinner and lunch.......
Haiz.... exam is nearing and i starting to feel a bit stress........ MSN lah...after i do one tutorial qns, i will feel a sense of achievement and i will start to talk cork online...... so ten qns will take me like 5 hours...... next week.... determine to stop using msn so often liao..... but irony, i had been saying this since long long time ago and always nv be able to do it........ Btw my com damn strong liao, after kana virus able to survive till now......... i still haven reformat my com cos my brother is not free..... sianz........
awaken from a "fairytale".... somethings are just not mean to be..... serioulsy it can be quite scary when you dunno what the other person is thinking.... he can be your best friend, taljing cork with you, but behind yr back he can backstab you like shit, spreading things about you........... and worst, you might one day die without knowing why.... haha not so serious loh.......... and taht's no way you will know unless people tell you........ hmm............. as an engineer, i will try to invent a detector to detect such person...... and i shall be rich...... haha............. but do that person sound a bit like me???.... haha dun worry, i will say in front of ypu if i dun like you... haha direct what........ k lah, let bygones be bygones........ CHapter closed............
DId i mention that my roomate zong se qin you??? hmm...... i making it very less obvious liao....... go use yr brain and think for a while....... He actually want me to move and stay with lionel in order to have the room to himself..... HOw people change... haha....... BUt guys please dun say you all heard from me...... haha........ i shall be evil like parry...haha....... who ask him to like this........ but nevertheless still wishes him all the best....... not very obvious right??? or is too obvious......... but .......... DO YOU THINK I CARE??? haha........ k gg home liao...... still haven decide what to do.... but dieing to watch shen hua, so anyone game for it??haha...... sms or call me...... yup just relise need to go home to do area cleaning.... really thankz a lot of people like connie, ping, etc.... for offering their help...... dun worry i will ask you all for help when i need it...... 8 more days and i can go see RA show offically liao.... Yes.... haha just joking lah............
what the hack....
haiz..... opps i did it again... i vent my frustration again... i lose my cool..... haiz.... shouldn't have done it... bUt i just vexed about what i'm going thru loh..... After some thoughts, i feel much better... decided to carry on.............. Hee no worry.... I'm strong...haha..... material science is freaking me out loh.... DUn understand so many things..... arrggg..... why can't i be like my roomate who can manage his studies and roll call so well..... haha...... respect to him man........ STill deciding whether to go home on sat or sun... haiz.... but cfm need to go home do area cleaning one..... HElp help... My material science and life science..... all the science... Arrgggggggg
arrgggggg................
Duuno what happen do i put myself in such a mess....... HAven had this feeling for a long long time...... The feeling simply sucks loh....... Serioulsi i should just carry on with my life now...... NO! NO! i won't be influence by my friend..... I should just follow my heart thru..... Really feel very vesed about the whole thing..... what should i do.... I noe what people will tell me, the same usual line whick myself will tell ours....... But i dun like the feeling of losing a "war"....... IS it an ego problem?? Prehaps...... haiz.... But seriously i have no mood for anything....... I'm dieing to noe what u thinking, but scared to know the truth.... HElp HELP!!!!!!!!! after writing, i still not feeling any better..... arrggggg... i simply sucks at this things.................
Lots of tutorial is piling up... and i just have no mood to touch them.... Why??? pon volleyball training...... haiz..... what has happen to me? Usually i will tend to shu zan shu que...... But now........ dunno why........... Feel like finding people to talk to.... bUt who shall i find?? I need a lisening ear and talking mouth...... arrrgggggggg hopefully running later will help........ PLease STOP TORTURING ME.......................
Is all over liao.....
WOw after so much prepartion, Hall 12 1st social event "hallowen nitez" is finally over........ The response was not bad.. though not a lot ofr people turn up, but most of them enjoy themselves. had fun and the reaponse for haunted house was GOOD, initally thought not many people will want to try haunted house but alot of people queue up...hee........
Haiz being in sub comm reminds me of army...... there will be people who work and people who smoke out... i nv say i very zai but i was there thruout the event, but alot of people just went missing....... damn dulan loh... Then when clearing up, just cum down eat the food without helping much..... BIG FUCK if u all have gf izit?? piangz alreday plan liao..... not too be so onz next time.......
Now there's a very fierce war going within me........ is LASKA VS CURRY...... this is what i had for supper yest nitez...... nv had any dinner so went for supper w yida,lionel and charlence...... our sister.... haha...... order laska.....1st time i having laska so late..... next time i won;t touch it again..... so painful.... LS a lot of time liao... haiz...... sianz man had be gg for supper 2 times in a row liao..... i dun one to heve a BELLY....... very er xin.....
relise that i had nothing much to write in my blog liao.... I NOE why, these few days no one pissed me off...haha.......haiz..... thinking of going for a run tonite... at last... k got to go for my lect liao.......
shag...........
Just come back from social meeting.... damn piseed with MAE people loh...
came back to set up the haunted house yest... But they took down all our setting and take all the chairs and tables...... In the end muz redo again on tue nitez..... DAmn it man..... waste our time...... meeting just ended and i fell damn tired...... Yest slp at 3 adn wake up at 730.... nv slp much for whole of today....... But I was damn shuang, cos i had done all my quiz liao... maths jia lat liao... BUt econs was still manaagement..... If i noe i won't bother do all the online quiz for 20 over chapter....... no help at all..... Wow i feeling great no more quiz... is just like i have do finish my exam liao....haha but this will only last for 1 days... tomolo xiong liao.....tomolo might also need to pon lect to go outside buy stuffs........
Today went for econs lect... and surprisely i learn quite a lot of things... Today chapter was on $$$$ MONEY $$$$.... the lecture say that for whatever money we earn, only 10% will be kept in bank as reserve..... The rest will be loan to other peopl... SO e.g u put $500 in bank, only $50 will remain in the bank .... the other ZERO will be gone... SO he say taht what our bank book show is only numbers......... Quite scary right??the reason why bank is able to survive is becos of the confindence we had in them....... If everyone go and redraw $$ at one time, the bank will confirm collapse........ SO now i noe the reason why the atm machine in NTU is always out of service..... Too many people draw liao...... hmm.............. haha.........
k lah.. really feeling damn tired....... really need to sleep liao... so song... tomolo 930 then wake up...SHUANG!!!!!!!!!
haiz.. just had dinner and is only half an hour to social meeting so i decided to blog loh......... Oh shit my meomory is failing me liao........
After speaking to that her, was kinda of having a.... mixed feeling....... I think my character and her clash lah..... She was saying i lack of EQ..... Frankly speaking, what's that?? EQ emotional something... My ah moh not that zai....I suddenly wonder the attitude and behaviour i having now............... IS it right?? Not as in ideally lah.... I have told myself that this 4 years of uni will be the last 4 years when i can be my true self.... COs when i stepping out to the work force... I must tune myself to counter the dark side of the society..... ALl the backstabbing, politic etc...... So this 4 years i will put on my ture self..... hmm........... hopefully cos i also not very sure what my true self is........ Everyday is like putting a mask.... To friends i may seem like a joker, but the problems i have, do anyone know?? haha..... not saying i damn jia lat..... But as i have say, you muz learn to see open......
Mood swings, problems, difficulties...... are all part and parcel of life......... I feel really blessed to be able to go uni and study... seriously.... cos studying is much more better than working.... FOr now lah... BUt when i start open my book, it will be another story....... Study is the most relac things after playing... hee...... But you yrself will feel a great sense of achievement when you see yr test paper and u did well...... Is much better than getting a driving license...haha... i suppose...... All the sadness, bad feeling, etc.... we muz learn to have in control of them.... Up till now, my control of them is still very jia lat.... I flraed up easily..... get mood swing easily.... But as compared to last time, the frequency is much lesser and i am able to tahan more....... seriously.......... Thinking back, if i meet people like me last time as compared to now, i'll go up to that person ( which is me last time) and give him a punch in his face... haha........ haiz..... really, you learn as you grow.........
Do i care about what people think of me? I can't really answer the qns, I can give the fuck off attitude, but sometimes i really wish to know how people think of me.......... People will get shick righT?? If you suddenly go up o him/her and ask What do you think of me?? For guys okay lah... but may sound a bit gay, but for gals, what if you send the wrong signal to her, she thought you want to jio her? it will be a mess........ At times people will tend to keep how they feel about others to themselves....... haha... but if you ask me how i feel about you.... hehe hee..... nvm........
Ren yu ren xiang chun is a very chim things...... haha..... You also cannot expect everyone to behave, think the same what, if not what's the difference between robots and human..........
Seriously is damn easy to say, give suggestion on what to do..... But when taht suitation happen to yrself, you will be in a loss.... really dunno why....... IS it say is not equal to must dO??? hmm............ all i lack is courage.......... does eating bladder of tiger help??? anyone try before??? Is it really true that you will have more courage when you are feeling tipsy?.................. hmm......... haiz.... whatever it is, muz try.... if not you will end out feeling regretful..... which is no good.... Be true to yourself, wen xin wu kui....... can liao......
Got to go for my meeting liao..... Hopefully will end early, then i will have time to revise my maths and econs quiz....... haiz... after that i'll be free...... 30 days to exam....... jai lat next sem i cfm die liao...... More aus to take, GE to take and worst got chem....... cfm struggle like siao...................... arrgggggggg................
U make my day!!
was doing my econ online quiz when i receive this msg from somehow, let's call her A
A:Key, i noe u invite our ** class ppl. Who else did u invite? For yr bday i mean.
OMG, thaere she go again.... i did mention abt her in my blog last time and she doesn't seem to change...... But i still reply her.....
Me: The usual pp loh...
Then she again
A : did u invite OTHER ppl eg uni ppl?
Me: yes
A:ohhh.... so i assume we will b hanging in e house?
wow piangz what she expect?? set up tentage, campfire?? ahha...... but i still reply her
A: yes... anything else u want know? will u be coming??
She: yes. we will be eating and what else arh?
Wow piangz final straw cannot take it liao decided to call her but in the end she nv pick up the phone..... Mind you, i was smsing her on hp not msn..... I duuno is it my problem or what... BUt she like to ask alot of things then got one time she do stunt, ask a lot of thing then nv turn out......
But nvm, she call me later and we chat...... was talking nonscence with her... she damn crapping ....... i can say somwhere my level haha........ she talk talk then say what everyone is siblings to each other cos we all came from adam and eve..... WTF... damn lame loh..... But cannot take it she call me childish 3 times....... damn corky... but dunno when we started to so call quarrel.... as usual lah..... we do so last time now also the same... But she make me relise a lot of things today... haha another lesson learn......
Shall say more next time.... gona go for my dinner and then 8p.m got the social meeting... damn sianz... still haven study maths quiz..... haiz..... she really make my day.... BTw no prize from gussing who she is......
piangz...........
wow not productive at all..... for the whole of yest and today... only manage to study one miserable chapter...Dunno what the hell am i doing..... haiz... as usual on com chat on msn, watch movie, sleep etc..... every night before i sleep i tell myself i'll study hard and not touch the com, but the devil in me is simply too powerful......
Haiz..... I still not in a very stressed mode...... sometimes feel damn stress..... next moment hack care... Just had supper and feeling damn tired..... But cannot slp....... all thankz to adrain i manage to understand quite alot of things... and he's slping over at my room tonite..... is he my new found gay partner???haha....... arrg........
Monday econs quiz is 30% of the exam... so muz really study hard tomolo..... haiz... k lah.... gona go study... haha .... now whenever i sianz i will just blog ...... feeling better liao.....
SAturday ...........
hmm...... nothung to do so decided to blog... last week was soft of rollercoaster ride for me...... But admist the down thing, i did have some up thing... hee......
haiz.... life in uni can be damn relac if it there is no stress.... Imagine just study .... Nothing much to worry...... So relax... Though we student will disagree with it..... is so irony, when you are working, you want to study and when you are study you wants to works..... we are never satifised........ SO how??? haiz...... 31 days to exam... Damn it man... is only an exam and i'm only in year 1... But how come to me, is like A level?? haiz... there's really tons and tons of things that i dunno....
I foresee that next week will be damn busy for me..... With my hall 1st social event coming up.... haiz... hope it will end fast..... I want to go RUNNING... kind of sad cos soccer had stop as nus and smu having exam.. haiz.... only play for 1 match....
wow suddenly people around me are getting attached.. one by one... haha..... dunno when it will be my turn...... My phy tutor were saying, think hard and what yoy think will come thru... So does it mean that i everyday think that yan chenling will be my gf, will it come true?? haha... He's good, cos last week he purposely gave us a motivationl talk... But in the end i feel much worst off after hearing what he say.... hmm......... My material sci teacher also quite take care of me... Cos i got the lowest in class and he kinda of worry for me.... Ask me to approach him if i have any doubts...No pro.... i cfm will go and ask him......
I have a problem lei... Either i sleep too much or i slack too much...I cannot seem to concentrate much when studying... study a while easily tired..... haiz...... was reading lim kopi blog and I think i am such a failure in life..... Cos the number of book i have read is like less than 20.. seriously... those book i read is last time....... mostly by roland dahl....BFG, the witches, etc..... I have not even complete one book of harry potter......
Pianz just receive a msg that i was not selected for my hall special project..... Fuck up man... I always make an effort to join my hall thing, but Fuck... i was not choosen... The reason was like i nv go for the fucking FOC.... Ok i shall count.... I apply for 3 hall social hall sub-com cultural, social and publiaction..... i only got in social... becos i noe the chairperson who's my lab mate...... Then went for FOC interview, wa rejected..... Followed by weekend getaway and beach day.... special project...... Fuck up man...... i needed the points and i was rejected... so next time when i not enough point, i forsee they will say thing like who ask u not to join things.... I WILL FUCK THEM LOH..... Not i dun want is you all dun want me...... The system really sucks loh..... Do things by realation.... argggg...... simply hate it man............ haiz... just hope i can get a room next year... But i dun want to change roomate.... I love my roomate( sound a bit gay i noe)... haha...... we had no conflict at all..... One reason is his one hao hao na ren... no temper........ Argg... simply hate my hall people....... kaoz .... kana rejected so many time...... fuck man.......
Hmm..... think i next week go home muz do spring cleaning liao..... if not haha..... people will think i live in a squatter...... my house is in a mess loh.... everything is all ard my table... haha but mine is at least better than my brother..... shall go back and force him to tidy... but in the end i know i will be the one doing the job...... My mom seems more kan jiong then me.... call me today and ask me what dish to order etc....... haha.... really muz thankz her...... actually i doen't want to celebrate but she somehow inisist on me to celebrate... say is my 21st birthday...... one lifetime once......... ok looking forward to it...... hopefully people who i had call dun put my aeroplane...... and i dun have to entertain everyone.... haha they can self entertain... hee...... k now back to study... hopefully able to lah......
If the am in a dream now, hope that i dun wake up........Am i being over senstive?? Prehaps i suppose...... Zzzz..........
Pictures from sports ball 2005
Us at the prize presentation for best dress......
pictures.... Respect that gal who wore the big... dunno what.... on the extreme left...... think she had sufforcate to death liao.....
Let me lick you, peter pan!!!
Beng kiat had not cut his hair for 5 years liao......
haiz..... take my wig out for a rest...... All the hairpin on my head irritate me..... ai swee mai life.... dun understand nvm...
Dun study too hard.... If not you will end out like a nerd, just like me..... so... play hard!!! I'm a scholar!!!
chicken head... Just for u yili....
hmm..... taking pic with mei niu...... But why i look so uptight?? bo ho seh..... actually i scared the red indian will eat me up....
hmm......... i'm the cai hua jie...... You all better keep yr undergarment.....
hmm..... do i look like a hongkong star?? haha ... thick skin.... jasmine acting cute...... weraing my wig...
Big happy family...... 7 days of fun.....
The super Off group... My roomate..... The BEGGAR cum kopi boy CLAN...... They have create hostory by being the first group in singapore to wear singlet and shorts to a ball...... REspect......The stick is no doubt what we use to hang our cloth.......... Why do begger carry a stick?? are they blind?? And worst... the colour doesn't match......
eh... the person beside me is a gal btw... haha... opss shitty hongying....... who have a bigger and colourful nipple than me??
Eagles... Best Dress Group.....
Hall sweet hall...
people is home sweet home, i hall sweet hall...... yups, that;s right i spending my weekend in hall... DUn ask me why, cos i might not know the answer......... My long stay in hall make zhuo yuan think that i have some family problems...... haha ... no loh... i have no problems with my family.... dunno why just dun like to go out as much as last time........ rather slack in hall.....was damn demorlised cos i got the lowest in class for two of the quiz... dunno what happen... feeling damn bad........ i duuno what went wrong..... nothing seems to be following right for me......
Wanted to study but was always distracted by msn.... if i off my com, i'll just swich in on seconds later..... arrggg............. CAn i fucking wake up my idea?? i dunno what the hell i'm doing loh...... Already tied down by hall meeting etc.... sometimes i just damn sianz at meeting cos poeple will tend to talk cork............... haiz... next wed is our hall 1st social event... and guess what?? I'm not looking forward to it...... actually have lots of things to write want, but.... just not in the mood...... WHY?? Why?? WHY??
help lah........ Does the problem lies with me?? exam is only 31 days more... and i dun understand most of my lect now..... sianz lah...... i have already be very relac... for the whole of just now, i had watch 2 wo cai show and 1 movie....... arrgg... shall stop here and i'm going to do some self reflection..... help pls help........
