Dun take things for granted..........

hmm...... nothung to do so decided to blog... last week was soft of rollercoaster ride for me...... But admist the down thing, i did have some up thing... hee......

haiz.... life in uni can be damn relac if it there is no stress.... Imagine just study .... Nothing much to worry...... So relax... Though we student will disagree with it..... is so irony, when you are working, you want to study and when you are study you wants to works..... we are never satifised........ SO how??? haiz...... 31 days to exam... Damn it man... is only an exam and i'm only in year 1... But how come to me, is like A level?? haiz... there's really tons and tons of things that i dunno....

I foresee that next week will be damn busy for me..... With my hall 1st social event coming up.... haiz... hope it will end fast..... I want to go RUNNING... kind of sad cos soccer had stop as nus and smu having exam.. haiz.... only play for 1 match....

wow suddenly people around me are getting attached.. one by one... haha..... dunno when it will be my turn...... My phy tutor were saying, think hard and what yoy think will come thru... So does it mean that i everyday think that yan chenling will be my gf, will it come true?? haha... He's good, cos last week he purposely gave us a motivationl talk... But in the end i feel much worst off after hearing what he say.... hmm......... My material sci teacher also quite take care of me... Cos i got the lowest in class and he kinda of worry for me.... Ask me to approach him if i have any doubts...No pro.... i cfm will go and ask him......

I have a problem lei... Either i sleep too much or i slack too much...I cannot seem to concentrate much when studying... study a while easily tired..... haiz...... was reading lim kopi blog and I think i am such a failure in life..... Cos the number of book i have read is like less than 20.. seriously... those book i read is last time....... mostly by roland dahl....BFG, the witches, etc..... I have not even complete one book of harry potter......

Pianz just receive a msg that i was not selected for my hall special project..... Fuck up man... I always make an effort to join my hall thing, but Fuck... i was not choosen... The reason was like i nv go for the fucking FOC.... Ok i shall count.... I apply for 3 hall social hall sub-com cultural, social and publiaction..... i only got in social... becos i noe the chairperson who's my lab mate...... Then went for FOC interview, wa rejected..... Followed by weekend getaway and beach day.... special project...... Fuck up man...... i needed the points and i was rejected... so next time when i not enough point, i forsee they will say thing like who ask u not to join things.... I WILL FUCK THEM LOH..... Not i dun want is you all dun want me...... The system really sucks loh..... Do things by realation.... argggg...... simply hate it man............ haiz... just hope i can get a room next year... But i dun want to change roomate.... I love my roomate( sound a bit gay i noe)... haha...... we had no conflict at all..... One reason is his one hao hao na ren... no temper........ Argg... simply hate my hall people....... kaoz .... kana rejected so many time...... fuck man.......

Hmm..... think i next week go home muz do spring cleaning liao..... if not haha..... people will think i live in a squatter...... my house is in a mess loh.... everything is all ard my table... haha but mine is at least better than my brother..... shall go back and force him to tidy... but in the end i know i will be the one doing the job...... My mom seems more kan jiong then me.... call me today and ask me what dish to order etc....... haha.... really muz thankz her...... actually i doen't want to celebrate but she somehow inisist on me to celebrate... say is my 21st birthday...... one lifetime once......... ok looking forward to it...... hopefully people who i had call dun put my aeroplane...... and i dun have to entertain everyone.... haha they can self entertain... hee...... k now back to study... hopefully able to lah......

If the am in a dream now, hope that i dun wake up........Am i being over senstive?? Prehaps i suppose...... Zzzz..........