Dun take things for granted..........

I felt that this week was a low period of my life.

got into another police case last weekend. And so conincidencely the policeman was my friend brother. so was some sort of stunt when i see him. haiz..... will be still the same. won't change, unless he just drop dead. FARking OLD MAN!!!

My grandma's now in bad state.very sick.as u know,a normal heart will expand and contract.But hers can expand,den contract only a little.its very scary.and juz a few days ago,she dreamt of slping wif dead ppl.Hmmm.if u got hear enough stories from ur elders or wat...a few days b4 a person pass away,he/she will meet such 'things' in their dreams.Its damn scary.

went to visit her last sat, she was so weak that she couldn't talk. JUst basically sit that, watch tv. ususlly she will talk cock w us. But i usually have diffficult talking to her cos she not well versed in chinese and my hokkien kinda of sucks. so speak in broken hokkein one piece one piece.

I would often tease her whether she got meet any yandao ah pek... ahha soemtime she blush which i think was cute. Haiz really pain me to see her suffering, think she had to go dialysis. basically just wait for death to arrive,

thinking back, i think i had not be a filal garndson. It had been so long since i last visit her. when young, will often go w parent to visit her every week. slowly when i grow up, the no of visit decrease and now it is only during special occasion that i will see her.

Actually the week b4 when i heard she is like going to be gone, i wanted to see her, but quite busy. so was like quite uncomfortable for the last week, very scraed when i see that i had a call from home. fearing the worst.

Grandma, be strong..........................

unfilial grandson