sucky feeling
Being organizer for outing can be so pissing at time. Arrggg nvm…….
It had been 1 month since sports camp ended, Next week going to be the last time ever think that the whole camp will get together as a universe. SPORTS BALL. Being a senir is not that easy, all the countless sms to freshie, pressing them for $$, organizing outing.
As hard as I try, I think I had sort of give up on my group. We aren’t the best, but our friendship was strongest during the 7 days of camp. It just somehow irritated me to sms them at times, cos I would either have people who try to act cute and be funny w me, asking all sort of qns, or I would just get people who never reply to my sms.
Hmm…. Dunno what to say lah. I always thought that my group will stay together. But turn out otherwise. But nevertheless I had made great friend like jiehuai and yingli. Cos we all stay near each other, so we could have a lot of time meeting up. And they both are great people.
Ok nvm, shalln’t brood to much about it, just in case I’m going to blow my top again. Later meeting some of them to try out costume for the ball. Going to waste $$$ again. Come to think of it, I still haven post any pic of sport camp. Hmm shall do it next week ba.
Thankz some of u all for concerning about my grandma. She is getting weaker and weaker day by day. Every visit to the hospital will end out w the doctor telling us more problem about her body. Fear of her going is getting stronger day by day. Now she is like having a world tour… Going and stay over for a few nites at all his children house. Stop by at my house from last Monday to thur. Just had a feeling when all is accomplished, time upz.
I never feel so much when my grandpa pass away when I’m sec 2 never even shed a tear. I dunno why. Maybe not close to her. Think I was quite scared of him last time, he was like a discipline master. So strict. Scolding us for those little fun we had. Always put on a stern look and never smiling.
But for my grandma, she’s always so cheerful. Though the constant nagging for all of us to get a gf and show it to her. Me, being unfilal, had never be able to accomplish that. I know that I will be damn sad if *touchwood* god decide to take her away.
Just yesterday on the bus when I was going home, I thought of her and tear dwell on my eyes, threatening to come out any time. Just feel so sad when your love one is suffering. The feeling of losing close one is so unbearable. And it add on when I feel so helpless, nth that I can do for her. That feeling really sucks!!!!!
Later tonite going for my super duper best friend qianru’s bday. Felt so ashamed cos I forget to sms her and wish her on the actual day. Shit. 21st bday. Wow old liao. Next week is eagle’s mom. Wow so many people 21st this year.
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