WOULD u?
it is often through "things" that u see how people treasure friendship.
If one little small thing can trigger things off......... that's means the frienship is worthless. next time when we look back, we will be laughing at how foolish we are or even feel gulity for letting the frienship just go by.
a lot of things has happen lately and the last thing i want to be fan abt is FOC camp. If there's one thing i regret, it might have to be FOC camp.
i also dun wish for things to turn out this way, pointing finger all these, blaming people here and there won't be any use.
What's the use of be "idealist?"
ren bi ren qi shi ren ( comparing will drive people to their grave )
HALL camp can never be compare to school camp. All along i thought that other hall are quite siao onz, but turn out is only a handful of them who's siao on abt hall.
You make great friend in hall, they might be yr mj kaki, dining kaiki, supper or even jogging kaiki.
ai ya...... can't wait FOC camp to be over.......................
nice song......
Redwan Ali - Would You Be Thereif i were blue, would you be there for me?
and whisper in my ear 'that's ok'...
would you stand by me?
let me hold you tight, and say you love me one more time...
if i feel good, would you slow dance with me?
and touch my lips with tender loving care...
would you die for me?
would you run with me?
and never look back...
(chorus a: 2 times)
would you be there to love, to be with me?
would you swear that your love is always true?
would you say that you'll always be the one?
to take my breathe away...
would you be there...
if i'm away, would you still think of me?
and wished that you could hold me now... (hold me now)
would you die for me?
would you run with me?all the way...
(chorus b: 2 times)
would you be there to love, to be with me?
would you swear that your love is always true?
would you say that you'll always be the one?
to take my breathe away...
would you be there to save my soul tonight?
would you swear that your love is always true?
would you say that you'll always be there?
to kiss my pain away...would you be there...for me...
ah ma,
pls po pi yr grandson get ho result ho.......
seeing the past entries make me miss u...
ah ma, ni ho bo???
Bye GRANDMA............
No of post in my blogger read 888. today I shall dedicate my LAST post on this blog to be beloved GRANMDA.
As hard as I thought it was a dream, it never was.
Just last tue when I go hospital visit bra, I suddenly thought of her, thought my grandma was staying in NUH. But tHought out otherwise.
Called my mom and she told me grandma was damn jialat…… fucking fuckling jialat. I somehow told her I will be visiting her after my SURF SWEAT.
And now I guess I will see her before surf sweat.
Was sleeping just now when bro sms me.
4 simple word. BUT meant so much more
GRANDMA JUZ PASSED AWAY.
WHY???????? Tell me why? Ever since she need to go xi shen, I have never visit her. NOT EVEN ONCE!!!!!!!!!!
Guess now when I finally can get to see her, she won’t be talking to me. Missed the time when I tease her.
I am really damn damn piss with myself. I can just go to hospital to visit BRA, but my own grandma???? Can’t even talk some time to visit her.
To add on, I am so sick now. Was coughing the whole nite. I think I deserved to be torture!!!! It is nothing compare to the suffering grandma went thru.
How I hope time will flies back. I will really miss her.
What a fuck up grandson he have. And I know following her death, some mother fucker will be up to something.
I really really missed her.
GRANDma………………..
i think it will be quite some time before i pick myself up and have a nice cheerful smile. and surf sweat is just so near away.................................. i hope i can be strong.......... i still hope my bro is playing a prank on me, telling me it was a false alarm......
Yesterday mark the end of my dec holiday job in polo. I am not sure whether I will be working there again. Cos of the pay… haiz… oh well…………
Never really click a lot with the fulltimer cos I only work like 15 days in total. But I enjoy the companion of the part timer and especially with so good boss like andy and jermery around. Working can be enjoyable.
Still remember some mistake that I commit during work, they never scolded me and somemore help me cover for it. Feel blessed with them around. But if they really need people to work, and if I free, I will sure help out one.
Yesterday I saw “someone”. A political figure oversea. Think people are still wondering where he gone to. But guess what, I saw him shopping at lido yestetday. With only one bodyguard. Wow after the hoo-ha….. he still gt the mood to shop. Maybe I should just snap a pic of him and send it to stomp.
A few incident that occur to me make me so lost and maybe terrible.
I think I have be in my comfort zone for the past 21 years and not relising what the outside world is.
Maybe I still have not grown up ba. Naive thinking I suppose.
As the days goes by, friends and even relative, family around you might be feeling terrible?
A had a child with his ex gf( shotgun) . give up a high pay job and change to a lower pay job so to have more time w family. Gf decide to say bye bye and left A. Poor A, world came trumbling down, bills to pay, loan to pay.
Was hard on him…… everyday bring bread to eat at work. While people go for lunch break, will hide in pantry and them eating the tasteless bread w plain water. He dun care what other people think of him, everyday eat bread, save and scrap.
Cos he wants his son to have the best. Give him what he wants.
Things started to get better now. But recently got to a new gf, but then cos of his son….the rest u all should know.
And then his son turn bad. Know some ah beng from sec sch. He’s only in P3 mind u. taught he do some stunt thing and was caught by the teacher.
And ya he was feeling quite sad about it. Haiz….. last time I always enjoy consoling people. When they have problem, I would give them advice.
But as I get older, all I do now is to offer a listening year.
WHY?
Feel so useless……..
Maybe because the problem that people faced are so small and tiny little wee….. tips of the ice berg…. Now as people grow old, things get magnify………..
It just pissed me off looking at some of the thing this SO CALLED ADULT do. Since young it is the norm that we should treat our parent nice. Take care of them when they are old.
But fuck, is not the way it is.
Own mother is sick. Kidney failure, need to go for xi shen. One of his son think that he is a bother, decide to say that he dun want her in the house and would rather she stay at hospital or old folk home.
Wtf hope he get struck but lighting. Got 6 brother, eldest( who’s the richest) fourth fifth six all nv make any will to take her in.
WTF……. All so unfilal. Every year new year still can happily joke w grandma, talk to her. To show your so called fillal???? When something happen and $$$$$ are suppose to be able to solve things, everyone siam………….i think they all can’t wait for her to die so that they can all spilt the $$$$$$.
I hope one days their children do the same things to them and then I will laugh out loud in front of them because I believe that that is such thing called retribution……………….
I believe that there is…………..
Looking at it, things are still not going as smoothly as can be for me………….. but I still going stronger day by day………..
Not really failed to be the siao di dong people know. But I guess is tiring at time. Sometime how I wish I have a shoulder of something to lean my head on. Someone to talk to, to share my swayness………….. hahah that’s bad.
I really scared that I will be a gu pi cong one day………………
si bei sway....
last week got into an accident.
So I decided to buy 4D.( I seldom buy also)…….
Buy for sat sun and wed. tmd…. Sat miss by one number. 6025, cum out 6095.
Nvm….. think just missed of luck.
Sunday not any number even near.
Then come wed, was on my way to support kopi derby in semi for tarewk when cj called me and said we might have won 4D. after that went hall to chk… TMD….. really zong 4D.
Thought that was the end if my bad luck……….
Fucking hell 1st time in my life. But the number is the the correct sequence. But heng I clever, remember to buy i-bet.
But fuck kana an wei jiang( consolation), normally if buy zhen zi u will win $63. now buy I bet, 2 repeated nos… permuation of 12…… in the end win $5….. fuck… in the end I also lugi…s pend $24 buy, then win $5 …
Where got people win 4D still lose money…………
Haiz….. si bei sway….
Nvm… this week buy again…… buy till surf sweat………
